Just Blah

That's exactly how I am feeling today. I love my babies with all my heart but I feel like I am going crazy. I am cooped up in the house with them all day long and the only time I get a break from them is if I get to go to the grocery store. Which usually only takes a couple hours and then I'm right back at home. Casey is working all the time now and even on his days off he is working with my dad. We only have one car so therefore I am stuck at home when he is working at Home Depot and when he is working with my dad I have the car but of course lately it has been too cold to take the babies anywhere. I feel like I am in a rut and I can't get out of it. I don't really have any friends around here and the ones I do are almost always working or don't have kids. We are trying to find a house to move to since we are running out of room here where we are and it's not easy to find something when you don't have the money to move and you struggle to survive every month. Yes we do get help but that only helps with the groceries. I never in my life thought that I would feel like I do because I can't help provide for my family (money wise anyways). I know I provide for them by staying at home with the babies but I know Casey feels the struggle to trying to provide for 4 people when for so long it was just him. This probably doe not make a whole lot of sense but I just feel like screaming because I don't know what to do. I miss my angels everyday and I know they are in a better place but it's still hard even though I do have the twins. I hope some way we are able to get a house and not have to struggle more than we already are to survive.